I Hate Trying to Think of Titles,

I find it really difficult to think of titles sometimes, which is why there are so many documents on my computer which are called Untitled with a number at the end, or why I stick to notebooks until I can title things. 

I'm going to just warn you that I'm typing this while attacking an adult slushy (Parrot Bay's Berry Dacquiri) so if this gets a little less sensical as it goes along, that is much to be expected... 

So, I mentioned that Ben and I had made a deal about my getting Yours, finished by the end of the year, and I was a little worried that I wouldn't get it done, but what might be glad to know is that it's roughly half done... And it was the difficult half. I find that when I like characters and something bad happens to them, as often does, I find those sections really difficult to deal with, and so I tend to avoid them. The obvious question that comes along there is 'why didn't you just write it differently?' but I have to explain something right now - I don't write things how I want them to happen, I write them how they play out in my head, and that doesn't always leave things how I want them.

I just want to clarify, I'm not trying to suggest I have no control over the things that happen, I can ultimately affect it all with my moods, the music I listen to etc, but if I try to change something because it's not quite what I want for the character, it never goes exceptionally well. I guess that what I have come to accept is that good things and bad things will come to good and bad people, everything is on a grey scale and it is how you learn to deal with things that is really important. 

In other news, I have written the introduction for my dissertation, been to the knitting and stitching show, carried on working at the hospital and decided what I'm giving my family for Christmas whilst being grinchy about the fact that stores are already stocking their Christmas collections. Granted I had no problem with this for the knitting and stitching show, but making gifts for people can take the whole year, so it's a bit more understandable. 

Basically, life is still busy, busy, busy, and now November is just about on the horizon and the question is being asked - to NaNo or not to NaNo? On the plus side, I abhor losing, so I will find the time to hit the target, but would my dissertation or my other courses suffer as a consequence? Most probably. Or I'd spend another month trying to learn how to live without sleeping. The thing is, pretty much regardless of everything on the list of why I shouldn't do it, the probability is that I will throw caution to the wind and do it anyway, because it's just become a part of who I am. 

Anyway, life's calling...