How Are You Suddenly So Consistent?,

 For anyone who has been reading this blog for a while, you'll know I'm shockingly inconsistent about posting, and it probably seems like a really odd time to suddenly be so consistent with posting, given that the clock to when I give birth to my son is ticking down very, very quickly right now. There are a couple of things that have contributed to it though. 

For one thing, I really wanted to get back into writing and the relief that came with certain changes in NaNo this year has really helped with that. I hate when I stop writing because it really affects my mental health because it's been a big part of my life for a very long time. 

The second thing is I am utilising the scheduling function and not feeling guilty about it, for two reasons. I don't want to just drop off the map when I have the baby, partly because I don't want it to be completely obvious when we go into the hospital; it's something I want to be very deliberate in sharing, and have control over when we share it. The other reason is accepting that ADHD has an impact and tools like this mean that it doesn't have to have as big of an impact.

Over the last few days, (in literal terms I think it's been about three days) I have written about twelve different blog posts and scheduled them for a few days apart, partly to create some consistency and a bit of routine on here, but also because I figure if I can get a bit ahead of myself in that on the days where the motivation and inspiration takes me, then on the days where it doesn't I have a bit of a buffer. 

It's one of those sorts of tools or tricks that actually really can help, but I underutilise it because I'm used to the whole thing of coping with the symptoms and effects of my ADHD that I shy away from using things that will help, because I was always told that there was nothing wrong with me, that I was basically lazy and it was my own fault that I couldn't do the things that I needed to do. The whole process of getting my diagnosis and getting onto medication, having to come off of medication due to the pregnancy and then eventually getting back onto the medication has been such a learning curve, because I've had to learn to adapt and also unlearn about the different things where I have been masking my symptoms for a very long time.